Category: Fear

  • Life, that’s what they call it…

    Life, that’s what they call it…

    This Thing Called… Life Life? So, you wake up, fall out bed, trip over your pile of dirty laundry. Survive the trip down to the kitchen where you can eat your bowl of Life cereal, play the game of Life, and watch the movie “Life”. The game of Life has you getting married, having children, […]

  • Self Harm

    Self Harm

    There is a darkness that becomes an old friend to those who suffer from depression. The darkness takes many shapes and forms. A devout Southern Baptist Christian may tell you, “It’s the Devil,” or “It’s a demon on your back.” The darkness is different things to different people. What matters is how you deal with […]

  • BPD Roller Coaster

    BPD Roller Coaster

    The ups and downs of living with a personality disorder can be mind boggling. There’s no wonder that the Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) gets confused with Bipolar Disorder when a person exhibits the “hot and cold” or “roller coaster” emotions. Behind the ups and the downs is a person who just wants to be in […]

  • Out of the Darkness

    Out of the Darkness

    I participated in the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention’s “Out of the Darkness” walk in my community. I was nervous about going, but found myself overwhelmed by all of the support…

  • Boundaries… Day 3

    Boundaries… Day 3

    It would seem that my daily boundary pondering has turned into a weekly thing. I started off strong, reading the book, making notes and thinking about what I would share. Today, I look back at that and wonder where I lost steam. I had a busy weekend. I have had a busy week where I […]

  • Boundaries… Day 2

    Boundaries… Day 2

    I started reading a book called Boundaries Updated and Expanded Edition: When to Say Yes, How to Say No To Take Control of Your Life by Henry Cloud and John Townsend. I chose this book, because when I searched boundaries it came up a lot and there were a lot of positive reviews about it. The […]

  • “I’m hiding from mirrors”

    “I’m hiding from mirrors”

    I have a personality disorder that was recently diagnosed. I think that the disorder effects how I react to situations and act in relationships. I still think that things like my family of origin, divorce and past love relationships have effected me, but I do wonder how much comes from the personality disorder. I look […]

  • Boundaries… Day 1

    Boundaries… Day 1

    I will be exploring boundaries. The first step will be for me to understand them!

  • “What have I become?”

    “What have I become?”

    When you go through the end of a major relationship, be it a love relationship or friendship, there are is a road to recovery you have to travel. It’s not an easy road. It’s painful and you will come to a point at which you have to look at yourself in the mirror. This mirror […]

  • Feeling Lost

    Feeling Lost

    Lately, I have been floating and feeling lost. I have had a few life changes in the last year and right now I am living with what feels like unending pain. I feel like I have lost myself some where in the shuffle. Do I love myself? This feeling has made me question my love […]