Music and the Soul

Music can evoke so many different things for different people.  Some may think of it as noise, while others may think of it as a release from daily life.

Oh, give me the beat, boys, and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away

It is human nature to want to find ourselves lost in a good story and music plays a very important role.  Music brings depth and feeling to a movie.  It defines what the viewer should expect and resonates the the emotions of the viewers.

Operas are some of the most powerful forms of music.  Wagner wrote many, but his most famous is Die Walküre (Flight of the Valkyrie).  The Opera was made iconic by Bugs Bunny and Elmer Fudd for children everywhere.   He was hunting the rabbit and the rabbit was the Valkyrie.  The Flight of the Valkyrie played an iconic role in Francis Ford Copolla’s movie Apocalypse Now as the brigade of 1st Calvary dove through the jungle in Huey Helicopters.   But let’s be honest, we all thought of Elmer singing “I’m hunting the wabbit” when it plays.

Operas transcend language barriers.  Some are in Italian, German and English,  but none of it matters because the music is what brings in the story.   The music controls your emotions as you watch the story unfold before you and if you’re lucky enough to understand the language the lyrics will move you.

Let the music move you and take you to another world, another place, another time… Let go and drift away…

The Power of Water

Hydrotherapy

The Modern Industry

There is an entire industry dedicated to using water as a healing process.   The industry offers books,  Hydrogen Water (I  know about the Hindenburg), misters/inhalers, and of course retreats!  Just searching Google for “water healing” will result in about 297,000,000 results (Google will tell you how quickly it gave you those results as well).

The current number one book about water healing is called “The Healing Power of Water” by Dr. Masaru Emoto.  He was a scientist, a researcher and an entrepreneur (according to the book of Wikipedia).  Emoto became a Doctor of Alternative Medicine at the Open International University for Alternative Medicine in India a correspondence school which it is alleged requires no coursework (that’s my kind of school).  The book will transform your view of the world and help you find the “hidden message” in water.

Then there is a place in the city of Birmingham called “Healing Waters”… It offers a colon cleansing service, if you’re into that thing.

So, here we have an industry that sells  water therapy that makes millions on selling gadgets, books and all of the usual hubbub.  Which really starts to look a lot like pyramid schemes.

Historical Background

Western Civilization History

Water therapy goes back to the ancients of Egypt, Roman and Greeks.  Let’s take a moment and think about the living situation of those time periods.

The Egyptians had the rich and the poor, the rich had better health and had slaves to draw them bathes.  The rest bathed in the Nile with the crocodiles and likely raw sewage.  So, I can see how a bath might be helpful when you’re sick because you need to get the nastiness off of your skin.

The Romans created aqueducts,  sewers and had bath houses.  This lead to a healthier population and a lot of the Roman bathing was carried over into the years that passed for England and some of the other conquered lands.  Germany still offers some public bath houses, but they lack the Victorian modest that seems to be ingrained into most of western civilization.

For the most part, through history you find people offering different variants on bathing as forms of “therapy”, but you have to ask yourself… was it just cleanliness making people better?

Early American History

Hot Springs National Park in Branson, Missouri.  This parcel of land was reserved in 1832 for a park and a row of public bath houses were built.  Patients were sent to the hot springs to receive treatments from their ailments from the natural “healing powers”  of the natural mineral hot spring that fed the bath houses.

You can still visit these springs and minerals and visit a well preserved 19th century bath house called the Fordyce Bath House.   You can even have your own hot spring experience in a bath house, or play in the spring itself.  Your choice.

Then there’s the “Little White House” in  Warm Springs, Georgia.  This is where Franklin Delano Roosevelt spent his time int he warm springs with hopes of finding relief and healing for his polio.

The small town still welcomes visitors and is home to the Roosevelt Warm Springs Institute for Rehabilitation that was founded by Roosevelt to help others suffering with Polio.  The Facility how works to help heal other ailments by the power of the hot springs mineral water.

Hydrotherapy for Depression and Anxiety

An article was published by Peter Bongiorno on Psychology Today in June 2014.

In the Article, he discusses how hydrotherapy works and how it can effect different types of illnesses.  He concludes that hydrotherapy many benefits, but warns that extreme cold stress my actually impair your brain and cognitive function.  So, check with your physician before you join the polar bear club!

A Cold Splash-Hydrotherapy for Depression and Anxiety

My Turn

Now, that I have shared the things bumping around in my head when it comes to hydrotherapy, it’s time to get to why I am writing this post.

Music

img_0121Music, sweet music.

You touch my soul in ways  I cannot express in words.

People may not understand what I am going through, but music you know me.

Your lyrics remind me, feel me, heal me and soothe me.

Music, sweet music… touch my soul.

The song that has set it’s talons into me today is called “Saltwater” and the artist is Geowulf.  It is a modern alternative piece that Corona Beer has taken to putting into their commercials.  Which leads to the meme of Indigo Montoya from Princess Bride:

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The lyrics are simple…

Saltwater in the afternoon
So scared of seeing you
Saltwater at the end of spring
So tired of hiding me

Come to the ocean
Even when you’re broken

Sunrise when you call my name
Oh I thought you had something to say
When the tide wash me in
You and I no longer a thing
Unrepentantly I’ve waited for you

Come to the ocean
Even when you’re broken
Come to the water
Let it wash you over

Come to the ocean
Even when you’re broken
Come to the water
Now that we are older

Geowulf:Satlwater Lyrics by LyricWiki

Saltwater Therpay

The song calls you to the water, the ocean, the waves… and to let it wash you over.

This song is the siren’s song for me.  I am what I call a “water baby”, because I have and will always love being in the water.  My mom recounts how I learned how to walk at my grandmother’s beach house and she purchased me new shoes for my walking.  Then… she took me to the beach where I promptly walked into the ocean. It would seem that I learned to walk so I could get into the water.

The song is telling me to carry all of my hurt and pain to the ocean.

Come to the Ocean

Even when you’re broken

Come to the water

Let it wash you over

That the ocean will wash me over and help me to heal.

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Self-Blame

What is Self-Blame?

Selfblame is a cognitive process in which an individual attributes the occurrence of a stressful event to oneself. The direction of blame often has implications for individuals’ emotions and behaviors during and following stressful situations. Self-Blame definition

I have a tendency to blame myself for everything that happens to me or around me. I accept responsibility for things I cannot control and sometimes it becomes a very heavy burden.

A burden that turns into depression, anxiety and a list of mental illnesses.

The hardest part is being open about that fact that I am blaming myself.  It’s hard to tell people that you know and love that you have huge burden.  It’s not a burden anyone placed on you, but it’s self-inflicted.

Did I cause my dog to get sick and get to the point I needed to put him down?  No, but I have found myself hitting myself very hard with some blame.  Thoughts like, “I wasn’t there enough… I should have been there to take care of him… I should’ve done more…” plague my mind.  But this is not the end.

I find myself worrying about making other people sick or being a burden on other people.  I keep things hidden and deep inside, because I don’t want to be a ‘burden’.

My Burden

I suffer from mental illnesses and I have other health problems as well.  I tend to “wear the mask” to put people and ease.  I fear that if they know what is really happening that I will be come a burden.

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I know that I am not alone in the fact that I blame myself for things and hide the fear of becoming a burden to other people.

I have learned that I do not get to decide if I am a burden to someone or not.  That is not a decision I can make for another person.  The next step is to realize that I can’t control everything and I am not responsible for everything.

In this thing called Life, things are going to happen that I have no control over and it’s important to realize that I am not to blame for when everything goes wrong.  When my dog is sick, it’s not my fault.  It may become my decision to make on whether or not it is time to end his pain and suffering, but I am not the cause of the problems.

My boyfriend may be upset, but that does not mean I am the cause of it.  The problem could be work related, family related or something completely unrelated to me.  I may get it into my head that I am a burden on him, but he reminds me that isn’t a decision I can make.

My relationship with my sister is strained and frayed.  But blaming myself will not find me a resolution.

Positive Affirmations

I have decided to start writing down positive things that are in the affirmative that I am not to blame for everything.  I, also, started reading a book called “The Storm Inside” by Sheila Walsh.

It is important to remember that with the Lord, you are never alone.  Anytime you feel like you cannot hold back the storm and its rage, you have to remember you’re not alone.  Especially, when you are going through something difficult or traumatic.

“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves the crushed spirit” – Psalm 34:18.

Sometimes, the feeling of being alone feels so dark, deep and endless.  Sometimes, your support system you reach out to isn’t available to help you with your problem.  But, you are not alone when your heart is open to God.  No matter what you face or what you are going through God is there to help you along the way.

I’ve heard it said that “God puts people into your life for a reason”.  The reason could be that you need someone to talk to about what you are feeling or you need someone to help you through a tough time.  The Bible talks about seasons and things turning.  Seasons bring different people into our lives, but it’s important that one remain constant.  That constant needs to be God.

In conclusion, I am going to work on my self blame by writing some positive things about my life down and by looking to God for guidance.  One day at a time, is all I can do.

 

 

 

 

 

Loss and Pain

I have not made a post in a while.  I have had a few things in my life.

Loss of a Loved One

On June 30th, I had to make the difficult decision to put my dog down.  My dog had a heart murmur, a collapsed trachea and heart failure.  He and I fought through one bought of heart failure, but his heart murmur had grown worse and he could no longer breathe without the aid of an oxygen tent.

I held him and sang to him as I let him go.  I sang the Lyrics to a song I had not listened to in years, so I made a lot of it up.  I made up a rendition of the song “Fly Away” by Poe.  I told him that I would never forget him and that everything was going to be fine.

YouTube to “Fly Away” by Poe

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It makes sense that it should happen this way
That the sky should break, and the earth should shake
As if to say: Sure it all matters but in such an
unimportant way
As if to say:
Fly away, sweet bird of prey
Fly fly away
Nothing can stand in your way
Sweet bird, if you knew the words
I know you’d say: fly, fly away
It makes sense that it should hurt in this way
That my heart should break, and my hands should shake
As if to say: Sure it don’t matter except in the most
important way
As if to say:
Fly away, sweet bird of prey
Fly fly away
I won’t stand in your way
Sweet bird, if you knew the words
I know that you’d say: fly, fly away
It makes sense that it should feel just this way
That you slowly fade and yet still remain
As if to say: Everything matter in such an invisible way
As if to say: It’s O.K.
Fly… away

The Darkness

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Pippin, my sweet mutt that I rescued as a senior dog on July 30th, 2016, brought many things to my life.

He had been found as a stray roaming the streets of Huntsville, Alabama and was picked up by a local rescue.  He was placed into a foster home and was given medical treatment before he was put up for adoption.

June 18th, 2016, I had lost my 10 year old Papillion Nemo and I wanted to give another dog he opportunity for a loving home and care.  When I got Pippin, he was a sweet weak boy who didn’t know what affection was or what it meant to be carried around in a bag.

He settled into my parents home with me and their dog.  They would bicker over food time, but things were worked out and they learned to live with each other.

I would come home pick him up and he started to lick my face when I did that.  His affection grew as time past, but after six months he was diagnosed with a collapsing trachea, then a heart murmur and later heart failure.

His second gotcha day came after he had passed.  Even now, my heart still aches some as I write this.

Living with Depression and Anxiety

After Pippin passed, I received a comment on a post saying that I needed to find God and that all of my depression and anxiety problems would go away.

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God is good, all of the time.  I believe that with all of my heart.

But THIS is my struggle.

THIS is my wilderness.

THIS is what God has given me.

Two Words

Two words define what a Christian is: Calling and Called. God calls us to Him.  God gives us all a calling to fulfill in His name.

God pushes into these times of struggle and anguish.  It’s what we do with it that defines us.  You may be facing something difficult in your life and you may be ready to quit, but remember that with God all things happen for a reason.  This reason is often not obvious to us.  It is important to remember to reach out to God and ask when the road ahead is not clear.

Instead of asking, “Why am I going through this?”, ask instead, “God, What do you want me to do with this?”

In my struggle, I have to remember to reach out to God and find the faith to ask what He wants me to do with what he is teaching me in my time in the “Wilderness”.

Asking for Help

I am not good at asking for help when I am struggling.  I know that there are probably millions of people out there that are like me.  But remember that God knows your true intentions in your heart, even if they are not spoken aloud.

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It’s hard to be the person you are meant to be, if you ignore everything God is giving you.  God speaks to all of us in different ways, but one of the ways you can connect is through reading your Bible.  The Bible is filled with His words and His love for all of us.

It’s hard to remember all of this when the darkness seeps in.  I remember the lyrics to “Brother Love’s Traveling Salvation Show” by Neil Diamond.  In this song, he gives a small sermon for ‘Brother Love’ and he says that God gave you two hands.  One hand is to reach out to Him and the other is to reach out to your brother.  Because we have got to help out each other.

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If you know someone that is suffering with depression.  Be patient with them.  Love them.  Be everything that Love is according to the Bible to that person.

Raise Awareness

I play World of Warcraft and my guild is trying to raise awareness and funds for American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.

I’ve attached a link to our game event, which has a link where donations can be made toward the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.

Rosie’s Events

If you want to just donate to our team cause, here’s a link: Donate Here.

We are trying to raise $1,000 and we have raised $20.00. Please help us raise funds for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.

It Hurts Parents to See Their Children Unhappy

 

I am not a parent, but I am a child.  I am not a parenting expert or an expert child, but I do have some experience with this thing called “Life”.

Hardened Hearts

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m being able to do things.  Small children feel like they do not get anything from their parents.  I think the following e-card about sums it up:

Life has a way of putting people through things that causes hearts to harden.  This hardening causes us to miss what is right in front of us.  It causes us to become unable to see things for how they truly are.

Image result for hardened heart toward parentsThe heart misses the fact that there are people who love you so much that they would give up everything to make you happy.  This kind of love is unconditional and is not easily broken.  This is the love that a parent has for a child.

Life effects everyone in different ways and sometimes life can cause people to close themselves off from the ones who love us most.  As young adults or teenagers, we let the thoughts of others influence how we feel about our parents.  Letting these thoughts cause animosity or dislike for our family.  These things may be true or they might even been falsehoods.  Once the mind believes it the heart follows closely behind.  Leaving it hardened and withdrawn.

Even though the heart is hardened and the mind is convinced that the child “hates” or “dislikes” his/her parents, the parents never changed from being the people that he/she adored as a small child.  Outside influences change us and there is no way of avoiding that fact.  These influences are “Life” and sometimes things happen that are very painful or hard to deal with.

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No one is prefect, no family is perfect, but in God’s eyes

we are all perfect.

Sometimes, when a hardened heart is developed it is missed that we are all imperfect and it is for our imperfections that God sent his only son to die for our sins.

Sometimes our hard heart covers up the truth and we miss everything.

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Protecting our Hearts – Wilderness Deception – Mosses 15

I have been watching these connect the dot Bible studies by Lisa Liazure.  There is particular study I have been listening, and I hadn’t in a while, that is called “The Wilderness Deception”.   This is a study about Moses and he trials and tribulations that he, himself, and the Israelites went through in the desert.

God comes to us in many ways and for me it as been through these online studies.  I started this post and went back to started to listen to it last week.  Lesson 15 talks about protecting our hearts from being hardened.

Here is a link to the lesson on YouTube: Protecting our Hearts

Here is a link to Lisa’s handout that goes with the study so you can follow along with the scripture and have some notes to help guide you.

Here is a link to the Women’s Bible Study website.  She has many, many more studies and special guests.  This Bible Study has truly helped me to grow my relationship with God.

Let’s Open our Hearts and Minds

I pray that all who read this open their minds and hearts to God’s love and purpose.  God has a purpose for all of us and love for all of us. We cannot receive either His love or purpose without first opening up our hearts and minds.

I pray that my post helps to soften hearts and open them to love from God and to love from Parents to a child.  God’s love is strong, but so is the love of a parent.  I pray that my post reaches those who need it most.

In Jesus’s name, I pray all these things and more, Amen.

 

Burdens of the Heart

An Empathetic Heart

No matter how many times I tell myself to be strong and stand up for myself, I find it difficult. My heart is huge and wants to see the absolute best in everyone and everything. I’ve let people in that have hurt me and it’s just not in me to be angry.

What it Means to Have the Heart of an Empath

This article talks about what it is like to have a heart of an Empath. What it’s like to be sensitive to the people and the things around you.  I know there are a lot of skeptics that don’t think that people can be sensitive to others feelings.  But as a Christian it is what God calls us to do.

1 Peter 3:8 ESV 

Finally, all of you, have unity of mind, sympathy, brotherly love, a tender heart, and a humble mind.

1 Thessalonians 5:11 ESV 

Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.

Colossians 3:12 ESV 

Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience,

Ephesians 4:32 ESV 

Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.

What Does the Bible Say about Empathetic Heart

In order to be a Christian, our hearts must be open to God and His gifts.  God gives us gifts that can sometimes feel like burdens.  These burdens are part of our purpose.  Like the Israelite’s and Jesus, we too must have our trails in the desert.  It’s up to you to find your way through.