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Living the Illusion
There are ups and downs with Border Line Personality Disorder (BPD). Sometimes you’re cruising along, and everything seems to be in place, and you’re in control. Then something happens, which makes you realize that it was all an illusion. I fell off my horse in February and found myself coping with my anxiety and compulsive…
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Head Collection
Getting Past Trauma I started taking Saddleseat lessons in 2012. Before that, I was self-taught, pointers from friends and had taken a few lessons from someone with my horse. The lessons had NOT been helpful to me, because the trainer had put fear into me. Fear is one of those things that you hear about…
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All THESE Words
All these words, words, words, You mean none of it.You tell me things that you think I want to hear,But all I hear is your words, words, words.I am falling deeper into my pit of darkness. The fire beast and demons are dragging me down,I fall ever deeper into despair. But all I hear is…
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OCD + Christmas
Holidays were designed to bring out all of your anxieties.